Simpler Thoughts

HOPE

2008-12-18T04:24:00.000-08:00

The time comes when someone from your past suddenly appears without you knowing it. Unexpectedly, your emotions become real again. Once again, you go back and is now forced to face the feelings that once were. You thought that you're over it already and even if that person re-appears in your life, you won't be in the least affected. But you thought wrong, because you're falling. Even you cannot really say that the relationship you had then was strong. There were just so many things left unsaid and undone. You had regrets. If only you had been a lot stronger, it would have been easy for you to open up to him and let your true self be known. You realized that you should have at least made it known to him how much you cared. You just never tried. You kept your feelings and thoughts to yourself.

You still have the same questions in your mind. Questions left unanswered. If only you can turn back the hands of time and start all over again. But you know you cannot. The moment was lost though not forgotten. And everytime you think of him, the memories become fresh. When reminiscing the good times, the pain is still there. You should have shown him...told him what you really felt. How foolish of you to let go of someone you really cared for!...of someone who could have played an important role in your life.

Now your holding on to your faith. You never lost it in spite of everything. It kept you happy and hopeful. You keep on hoping that everything is not lost. You hold on. You waited long enough. You even asked God to intervene and make it a reality, for you. You're just not giving up on it. And maybe, you never will....

LIFE'S EXPERIENCES

2008-12-16T19:50:00.000-08:00

I am again reading the book by Phil McGraw entitled: Love Smart: Find the One You Want. In fact, it became one of my favorite books because in a lot of ways it inspires me. As a single person, I want to remain inspired even without a boyfriend..haha. I have seen myself many times in some of the examples cited in the book and realized what I was doing wrong when it comes to men and relationships. I also have two books by John Gray who authored a series of Men are from Mars and Women are from Venus thing. Aside from these books, I still have some about relationships. The reason I have these books is because I want to understand relationships though I know that it won’t assure me of a successful one. Still, the best teacher of all is learning from experience.

What prompted me to write about this was because of the conversation I had with Ferna this morning while having breakfast. She asked me about _____ and said that it was my fault to which I said, ‘yes, I was at fault.’ I know what I did and I acknowledge it. And I remember that during that time, I bought an advice book to seek understanding. Of course, it was not the answer. It only gave me insights, some suggestions, tips on how to do things better, etc. But still the answer was within me, how to make it work depended on me. I should have learned from a previous failed relationship and should have been a better student taught by experience. But I was not. I can read all the books I want and still fail. It is our own real life experiences that give us the most knowledge and wisdom.

my simpler thoughts

2008-12-15T23:54:00.000-08:00

Hi friends, this will be my other blog site. I will still update my original site: http://www.simplethoughts.i.ph/ if I won't have any difficulty logging in.

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